Entry 33

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*You hear light weeping for several minutes before she blows her nose and starts to speak.*

I met with Tyann and it seems that everything may be true. Ms. Hyde has been dead for about twenty years now. My...mother? It feels so strange to call her that. I never knew her.

*Her voice shakes a little.*

According to Mr. Setas, one of my birth parents has to sign a paper to make my adoption legal in order for my inheritance to be released to me again. The only problem is that my birth mother is dead and no one seems to have much information about my birth father.

Tyann said she didn't remember Kamma talk about my birth father much. She did remember that they met in the cantina and were together a couple of months. She fell pretty hard for him but then something happened and she left him and never told him about me.

*She stands up slowly and paces.*

Tyann didn't remember his name, only that he wasn't particularly good looking and insanely large...in fact she used the term "looked more like a poorly shaven wookiee than a human".

*The woman lets out a short dry laugh.*

So after Kamma gave birth to me, she went off to find my father...tried to be a happy family or something, but he wasn't around anymore. Hooked himself up in the military and she never heard from him again. She realized that she couldn't take care of me on her own and that's when she got rid of me.

...

I'm so numb right now that I don't know what to think. I have to go back to Corellia and tell Mr. Setas something, and I need to find my birth father. I also need to hear Falcun's voice....

*She sighs and whispers.*

This may be my most difficult job yet.

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Entry 32

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*Her voice is strained and tense. Her words come out in a certain rhythm, making it obvious that she is reminding herself to breathe.*

I can't believe I came all this way...paid all that money...stressed myself out my by fending off the crew's unwanted attentions...only to find out that this woman was dead.

*She sighs and you can tell that she's struggling to keep herself together.*

I found a relative of hers. An aunt or something...Tyann is her name. I've called her and she's agreed to meet me later to discuss things.

*She stops talking for several minutes and you can faintly make out what sounds like betting going on in the distance.*

I haven't felt this alone in years. I don't even really know what to think...surely they would have told me if I was adopted. Wouldn't they? No, this is all just a dreadful mistake. Someone just looking for some money and they targeted my family.

I wish I had someone to talk to about this, to help me make sense of it all. I tried to call Falcun but he must have been busy because he never answered. I even tried to call Amillo but I wasn't able to get through to him either.

*She sighs and starts pacing.*

Not only is my parentage in question but here I am having these...feelings. Wanting to reach out to someone. Feeling lost without that intimate connection of friendship. I never used to care before. Why the hell am I worrying now?

Ugh...I'm even feeling vulnerable when I go out in the city. I won't tell Falcun that though. I don't want him to worry. Besides, I told him I can do this on my own and I will. I'm not about to let one moment of weakness redefine how I act.

*She pauses for a moment and you hear her open a bottle and take a pill.*

I just need to find a driver that doesn't want more from me than credits.

I'm really starting to miss having Falcun around.

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Entry 31

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*It is eerily quiet for a long moment. When the woman finally speaks her voice is weak and shaky and barely more than a whisper.*

My inheritance is frozen? I don't understand.

Everything was set up to go to me when they died...at least, that's what Mr. Setas said. The will states that everything goes to their daughter. I'm their daughter. Me. So what's wrong?

*There's silence broken only by the sound of shuffling papers*

Then there's this ... paper. It says the most horrendous thing.

...

I'm not their daughter.

*Her breath catches in her throat.*

I have to go to Umgul and find this woman, Kamma Hyde. Make her tell Mr. Setas that this is all a lie. I'm not her daughter.

*There's a pause and then you hear her take a deep breath. Her voice is firmer when she speaks again.*

I'll book transit to go this evening.

*Her voice is a slight whisper again.*

I should tell Falcun I'll be longer than I thought.

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Entry 30

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*You hear some water running and a little splashing like she might be washing her face or something. The water stops and you hear dainty steps of bare feet walk across a stone floor until you hear the bed creak as she sits on it.*

I was grumpy all day yesterday. We had drills and I just couldn't get in the mood for them. Then again, I'm not exactly sure why I'm participating in things like that anyway...it's not like I'm an actual member of the company or anything. I'm just a contractor. Meh, I did it anyway. I needed a break from moving.

*Her voice gets a little lighter and you can almost hear the smile.*

I did manage to find an empty house for rent, roughly 600 meters west of town. It even has a window! I've been having some of my larger pieces of furniture moved over here and once it got livable that's what I did...I moved myself out of the hotel and into my own place again. I have to say, it's a lot nicer than the last one I was in.

*You hear her crawling under the covers and yawning slightly*

After the drills I called on Mr. Nix to take me out of town. I wasn't too particular where I went and he took me to a nice little oasis he showed me the other day. We sat and talked and I was really able to relax for the first time all day. But then he pulled me into the water, clothes and all!

*She laughs brightly at the memory.*

Thankfully he had some supplies and was able to put up a makeshift shelter to keep us warm while our clothes dried. Afterwords there was an adventure in Eisley where he managed to get completely sloshed off of one drink and I managed to have a seizure. When I came too he had laid me on the bed and laid down behind me with his arm around me. What was the most embarrassing was that I was holding onto his arm for dear life.

After I gathered my strength enough to walk I had him take me home. He's an odd man. He offered to stay the night with me in case I had another one.

*She pauses momentarily then takes a deep breath.*

I asked him to stay...because...well I really didn't want to be alone. I felt kind of weak after yesterday's events .. both physically and emotionally, and I just really needed someone there for me. I felt my guard slip a little with him and even though it scared me, I didn't want him to leave. And before you get any silly ideas in your head...it wasn't just because of the sex. Granted, the sex was pretty good..

It was other..little things. He seemed to read my mind and know what I needed before I said anything. It was kinda nice to have a moment or two when I didn't have to take care of myself. Although, I'm not sure he can keep up with my sex drive. He complained a little the third time.

*There's a soft chuckle and you hear her roll over onto her side.*

I'm going home tomorrow. I need to pack my dresses and make sure I have all the paperwork I'll need for the trip, I don't want to be on Corellia any longer than I have to.

....

I wonder if I'll ever feel comfortable there again?

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Entry 29

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I hate paperwork. I hate interviews. I hate having to be professional.

*She pauses long enough to take a drink, setting the glass on the table with a light thud*

I interviewed another prospective employee. I honestly forget his name. A horrendous looking Sullustan. He seemed eager to please though so I couldn't over look that. Plus, Mr. Nix informed me when I hired him that he already had a full-time job and may not always be available for me at times. Unfortunately, the new man had lost his ship. I told him to call me when he got it back. He did,however, introduce me to another man...whom I'm told can cook. I'm having him over tomorrow to see if he's any good and if so, I'll hire him to cater the party.

*She takes another drink and you hear the chair creak as she leans back in it*

I got a package of paperwork that Mr. Setas sent by messenger. Apparently there are some problems with my parent's estate and I need to go home to tend to them. It will take me a day or so to make arrangements to leave. In the meantime we are having drills again tomorrow. I hope they don't expect me to shoot anything.

*The woman sighs, hiccups, and takes another drink. When she speaks again, you can tell the alcohol has started to take effect.*

I didn't get to see Amillo today. I only hope that we're able to spend some time together before I leave. It's bad enough I don't know how long I'll be...I don't even want to think about the fact that I'll be all alone while I'm gone.

*She lets out a slightly painful groan and takes another drink. When the glass hits the table this time you can tell she almost knocked it over.*

I really need to find someone else to spend time with...I don't want to get attached.

*She hiccups loudly and then laughs*

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Entry 28

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*The woman yawns and stretches, her voice seems ... distant*

Mr. Nix is working out quite well. He got me an interview with another dance group. Not sure if they'll work though but we'll see. I had an interview with another friend of his...a Mr. Nu'ro. He seemed promising, although I'm not too thrilled about the name of the group. Guess I can't really be that picky right now can I? I still need to find a caterer, or at least some waitstaff to serve food I buy.

*She's quiet for a long moment, her breathing is steady. You think she might have fallen asleep.*

Went and got the new pills from the doctor also. Should know something by the end of the week if they work. I certainly hope so.

*There's a slight pause*

I definitely couldn't help myself with him again. Couldn't have too much fun though, he got called away. Oh well...I suppose that's a good thing. Amillo and I had quite a busy day.

*She laughs lightly and rolls onto her side.*

Stopped to get a drink before I came back to the room...met a nice man who'd just got back into town. A Mr. Aldana I believe his name was. Going to have to look him up later.

*You hear her hand touch the recorder but she pauses before she turns it off*

Amillo was supposed to call me tonight....I hope he's ok.

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Entry 27

((semi-adult material))

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*Another accidental recording from the same day. You hear kissing and clothes being thrown. The voices are the same as the ones before.*

Woman: "I said, say goodbye Mr. Halcyon."
Man: "Goodbye, Mr. Halcyon."

*The woman giggles and you hear the bed creak*

Woman: "You're going to spoil me..."
Man: "You know you like it..."
Woman: "Mmmhm...I believe I do."

*The couple move around on the bed and then you hear what sounds like the recorder hitting the floor.*

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